Infarrantly Creative: REAL and RAW Part 16

Real and Raw Part 1
Real and Raw Part 2
Real and Raw Part 3
Real and Raw Part 4
Real and Raw Part 5
Real and Raw Part 6
Real and Raw Part 7
Real and Raw Part 8
Real and Raw Part 9
Real and Raw Part 10
Real and Raw Part 11
Real and Raw Part 12
Real and Raw Part 13
Real and Raw Part 14
Real and Raw Part 15

The whole day was a blur like most brides say. But it was my day and I loved having a whole day where the focus was on us.

(Yes, I love being the center of attention).

We had the privilege of my father-in-law performing the ceremony. We also prayed on a bench that Tim’s grandpa made to pray with his new bride on his wedding day. It is also the same bnech where Tim’s parents prayed on their wedding day. That was sentimental and special to us.

We shoved cake in each other’s face (yes, we are that couple) and danced the night away. Our first night as a married couple we stayed at this adorable little hotel on the river in a town nearby. It was super fancy. It had a huge two-person jacuzzi tub, bidet, fireplace, goose down comforters and the plushest bathrobe I have ever wrapped myself in.

We woke up to a room service breakfast and ate out on our deck facing the river. The next day we were going to the airport to fly to Cancun for our honeymoon. Tim said, “Who is taking us to the airport?” I said “My dad.” He said “WHAT!?!?!? Of all people your dad is taking us to the airport? The last person I want to see the day after I have sex for the first time with you is your dad!” I guess I didn’t think about the awkward drive in the car on the way to the airport. LOL! Tim will never let me live that one down.

We honeymooned in Cancun. I remember being so weirded out by the fact that I was married and traveling to a foreign country. I felt like we should have our parents along (that would be awkward), like we were not old enough to be traveling by ourselves.

I have got to tell my honeymoon story. It is hilarious. Not so fun at the moment but a great story to tell now.

We arrived at our hotel in Cancun late. There was the fabulous jetted jacuzzi in our room and I was all excited to use it (I have a HUUUUUGE obsession with taking bubble baths). We fill the tub up and go to get in it and the jets don’t work. So Tim calls the front desk and someone came to fix it. By the time my husband and the non-English speaking maintenance man fixed it we were no longer interested in the bathtub. It was late and we went nighty night. We forgot one crucial thing before we went to sleep:


At about 8 a.m. we hear a knock-knock on the door and someone coming to enter the room. In my half-asleep/half-awake state I think the best thing to do is run to the door and try to block the person from coming in. Did I mention we were on our honeymoon?!?! Can you imagine what I was wearing? Yes…good assumption…NOTHING! So then Tim is thinking in his half-asleep/half-awake state, “Knock on door, someone entering our room, naked wife…running to door.” So he thinks he is going to save me or something so he started to run towards the door.

HOT as heck outside + air conditioning cranked up inside our room + a marble floor = a slippery layer of condensation!

So I take two running steps and fall flat on my stomach and slide across the room like I was on a slip and slide. I realized I wasn’t going to make it to the door in time so I curled in a ball and hid behind a column. Then I look up and it was like a slow motion, Noooooooo!as I see Tim rolling out of bed to run to the door. He gets one good step in and falls flat on his back.

So there we are in all our naked glory and we hear the door close. We have no idea what the cleaning lady saw. Can you even imagine!?!?!

OK that really isn’t part of the story but I couldn’t help but sharing that…too funny.

I must say I love my man more today than I did on our wedding day. God was so good to me. I knew what I wanted in a husband but I had no idea all the things I didn’t know I needed. But God knew and he sure blessed me with Tim. It is amazing how God used the love of a good man to bring about so much healing in this heart of mine. I wouldn’t trade him for anything and I would marry him all over again today.

My story certainly doesn’t end the day I got married. God is continuing to write it page by page and day by day. I have by no means arrived. This story is me and although I am not proud of some of the choices I made or the choices others made that affected my life, it is who I am. Through tough times your character is built. And God sure gave me a happy ending and has used my story to encourage others. I am grateful.

A few of you have asked about some of the characters in my story…

1. Aleah – I never talked to her after I left Catholic school. However, on February 4th of this year I got this note on my facebook…

“Just wanted to drop you a note to say, I’m sorry. I truly feel bad about the way I treated you and any pain I may have caused you in high school. I was a real a-hole and for what it is worth, I’m sorry.”

That blew me away!! I never expected to hear that especially after 15 years. I think a little more of my heart was healed hearing that.

2. My mom – My parents finally got a divorce after a four year separation. My mom has since remarried a wonderful man that I love. I am lucky to have such an awesome step father. He dotes on her, takes care of her and the two of them have a special humor that only the two of them share. LOL! My mom is my best friend. I can’t believe I went through a time in my life when I didn’t want her around. What was I thinking!? She is one of the most loving and faithful people I know. Now all I want is for her to be around. πŸ™‚

3. My dad – I went through a year of counseling after my parents divorced to sort through all the emotions in my heart. Somewhere along the road of life I developed this fairy tale idea of what a dad and daughter relationship looked like. Unknown to him, I kept holding my dad to that same standard in my head. Without fail I would leave my time with my dad and be depressed and discouraged wanting more than I had. I went through this cycle for years. My counselor was able to help me put that little dream to rest and mourn the loss of what wasn’t. It was after that when I was really able to see my dad in a different light. He has made some mistakes but I am not going to define him by those. I love him and I am super excited about our relationship now. He adores me, is proud of me, and loves me more than I will ever know. He is always in my corner, believes in me, and lights up when he sees me walk in a room.

3. Jake – I wish I could tell you his story…it is a neat one also. He is happily married and living in Texas currently. He is a great guy and I am so elated to see him happy and blessed.

I could spend another 100 posts telling you about the last 11 years of my life. We have had ups, downs, curves and twists along the way sprinkled in with a lot of laughter and love. I am sure I will share more Real and Raw moments in the future. There are plenty more to tell.

Thanks for sharing this journey with me. I hope it gives you a peek into somebody who is more than a crafter, wife and mommy. The most important role I have is that I am a child of the King. I am grateful for His mercy and grace in my life. I AM BLESSED!!

I am ready to get my craft back on!!

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  1. That was so great. I enjoyed every “episode”. I am amazed at how much we have in common. So crazy!
    Thanks for sharing such personal stuff with everyone. Maybe one day I will do the same….maybe πŸ™‚

  2. Thanks for sharing, it’s been fun reading all about your life. God is faithful, and I agree…you are blessed.

  3. Sarah @ Thrifty Decor Chick says:

    Awww Beckie that was great! The honeymoon story was hilarious!! I loved learning more about you!

  4. Vivienne says:

    First, I have to say that you were a GORGEOUS bride. Truly stunning, both of you.

    Second, did you really slide across the floor buck naked? With Tim providing the encore? Classic!

    Third, I’m speaking for myself, but imagine there are many who will echo my sentiments: You blessed me with your story. You bolstered my frequently faltering faith. Thank you for sharing your journey. It reminds me to keep tabs on mine.

    God bless and thanks again.

  5. Your story is so great! Thank you for sharing. Really, most people wouldn’t want to put the ugly out there with the good. I’m sorta sad that this particular story is over. I really did laugh my hiny off with this last one! It reminds me of my comic honeymoon! The part with Tim and your dad driving you to the airport and then, the sliding naked on the floor!!! I keep getting visuals. I can’t help it!
    Anyway, thank you for your lovely story!

  6. Denise ~ Paper Ponderings says:

    Loved your story…it truly blessed me.

  7. This means the hand’s all better?! πŸ™‚ Woohoo! Loved the story… and I’m sure you’ve already thought of it… but what a wonderful gift to share with your children. A mini-book, if you will.

    Thanks for letting us into your life in such an intimate way. I’m sure I can speak for EVERYONE that it has been a joy to read.

    And in all truth… you have made me want to rekindle my connection with God. You have blessed me and many others.

  8. Shannon says:

    Well I just can’t believe you ended your story before I came into the picture. I mean I’m sure all your readers really wanted to hear about the next 6 or 7 years of your life so they could see how we met! HA!

    It’s been fun putting all the little pieces together to see the whole story.
    I love that you shared your journey with God with blogland. It’s obvious it’s been a blessing to many!

    so you are getting your craft on….ANONYMOUS will be soooo excited!

  9. BudgetPretty says:

    I’ve never commented on your blog, but I wanted to let you know I really enjoyed your story. I am glad you and Tim ended up together.

  10. Mom Taxi Julie says:

    Loved your romantic story! You are truely blessed to have Tim in your life.

  11. Anonymous says:

    This was so much fun and a blessing to read!! My two favorites are love stories and comedys– so got a little bit of both here and a wonderful testimony too–maybe you can make a movie~
    Thanks for sharing!

  12. Oh my goodness, I was laughing out loud during the during the honeymoon story.

    I haven’t ready each part so now that you are done I’m going to go back and read them all. You are going to be really happy that you did this one day!

  13. Lee Ann says:

    What a story Beckie. Steve wants you to write a book πŸ™‚ You may never know how many people you touched, or the depths that you touched them with your willingness to be open and vulnerable.

    Once again….my pasted and copied…….You Rock!

  14. Cynnamama's Cafe says:

    Thanks for sharing, it’s been fun reading all about your life. I didn’t want it to end ever for what a great story (I don’t remember half of my past!). I and like other bloggers truly do think you should write a book!
    God has blessed you, Tim, and your family forever and ever.

  15. everydayeclecticism says:

    Thanks for taking us on the trip down memory lane with you. It was nice learning more about you…I enjoyed the trip. Perhaps others of us will be so brave in the future.

    Angie S.

  16. Anonymous says:

    I was HOPING you would share the “honeymoon story!” I have even shared that one myself, and people always get a kick out of it!! Thanks for being so transparent in sharing your life and experiences. I’m thankful for everything God has brought you through, because He eventually brought you to me too. Love you and am looking forward to seeing you on the 13th!! Noah, Morgen, Isaac, and Kayla are going to have so much fun. Oh, and we might too!!!

  17. Christine Peterson says:

    Now that was fun! Thanks for being brave to let everyone read your awesome story. Your kids will love it when they are older. You’re great.

  18. K. Tacher says:

    Thanks for sharing your story! I thoroughly enjoyed reading them. You are a great writer!

  19. That Girl says:

    Thanks for sharing. I really enjoyed learning more….it was just like a real life show.

  20. CaLLie.ANN says:

    AH! What do we do now?!

    πŸ™‚ Love your story, love who you are and where you’re going and love that I got all the people I work with addicted to your life story. πŸ˜‰

  21. Loved it! Thanks for sharing, Beckie! The honeymoon story was absolutely hilarious! What a great memory!!!! : )

    Amazing how God provided just the man you needed in Tim. Congratulations… praying for many more years to come! : )

  22. Beckie – I have laughed and cried through your story…Now, I must say that I pray for my children daily. Having said that, your story has put it upon my heart to remember to pray specifics for my children, especially so that they will always feel the hand of God taking them in the direction in which He has planned for them. Not to mention the husband/wife He has planned for them….

    I am soooo glad my sister convinced me to start stalking your blog when she did….I am always happy to have another sister!!!

    ps. The Honeymoon Part!!! Seriously, could there be anything more funny than that??? Hilarious!!!

  23. God is good all the time!
    Thank you for sharing about you! and who you were and who you are today. You are a new creation! And a beautiful one at that, inside and out.

    Now I know why I was so drawn to you at SV; we have a lot in common with our dads, some of the choices we made and then being blessed with our men.

    Hope you are recovered from your surgery.

  24. A Romantic Porch says:

    Beckie, Thanks for sharing “Raw and Real”. You are a beautiful bride. God is good…all the time…God is good! xorachel

  25. MamÑ to the best 3 says:

    awesome story and i really enjoyed seeing how the Lord has worked in your life and those around you! What an amazing God we serve!! I recently found your blog and have also loved the craft stuff!! i’m excited to see your posts in the future!!

  26. I too enjoyed every episode of your life….you are a great writer.

  27. Thanks for commenting on my project! I want to see your bed with the pillows on it–I ADORE that fabric!
    I stumbled on your REAL and RAW story–so great. Thank you for sharing so honestly your life story. So often Christians try to gloss over the realities of their lives and it can stifle our opportunities to love and help others who are suffering.

  28. Ryan and Amy says:

    Thank you so much for sharing your story with us, Beckie! I have loved laughing, crying, and smiling while reading these past sixteen blogs. I hope you have a great visit with your dad and look forward to seeing you when you get home!

  29. i haven’t commented through out your story but thought I should comment now. Thanks for sharing so much of your heart, for being real and vulnerable. I know your story spoke to many, including me. the honeymoon story is flippin hilarious! I have a similar honeymoon ‘airport’ story except my dad and mom picked us up at our hotel ROOM….and my dad went through our room to make sure we didn’t leave anything…guess what he found?! My teeny tiny underwear from the night before!!! He stinkin rolled them in a ball and handed them to me discreetly. Holy cow. I was so embarrassed. He could have at least given them to my mom to give to me!!! Awful. anyways, thanks for sharing your testimony. It was awesome.

  30. Stephanie @ My Answered Prayer says:

    Thanks for sharing your life story…hopefully this will change someones life and bring them to know our Mighty King.

    I’m looking forward to your craftiness but will miss checking to see if there is a new Real and Raw episode.

  31. Aww, beautiful pics, what a pretty bride you were! And now we have reached the “end” to the story, I always hate it when stories end and always hope for a sequel. πŸ˜‰ I hope you will share more in the future, I really enjoyed reading about your life. Thank you for sharing!

  32. annaliese says:

    *sigh* I was finally able to devote time to finishing your beautiful story. thank you, so much, for writing it. it has been a blessing and an inspiration–much like everything on your blog!

  33. I love happy endings! I’m so glad you shared your story. I love hearing how people have overcome challenges and hard times and made the most of it and turned out to be wonderful and beautiful people. Makes me happy! Thank you for sharing the whole thing!

  34. Cha-Ching on a Shoestring says:

    oh how i was hoping you would share that story…i’ve heard it countless times and i still laughed out loud when i read it!

  35. Wow! That’s a great story! I had read part 1 a while back and never got caught up, so of course I had to sit and read them all at once!! Whew! So many parts of your story sound like my own life. Amazing how our experiences shape us. Thanks for sharing it. Now, go get your craft on!

  36. Elizabeth :) says:

    Thank you. *HUGS* πŸ™‚

  37. Wow! I'm in tears. You have an amazing husband and family!

  38. Your honey moon story is hilarious! LOL! *smiling*

    Thank you for sharing your story and the grace of God! I loved every bit of it! ;0)

    You have earned your way onto my blogroll! I love your creative side too!

    God bless! Rhonda

  39. Mama Marchauna says:

    I found your blog while looking for a fleece hat pattern. Boy, did I find a treasure trove. Thank you for sharing your story so openly and honestly. You weren't kidding about the real and raw part, were you?! It is a privilege to have shared a small piece of your life. I hope we meet in Heaven one day. You seem like a pretty amazing lady.

  40. I can't tell you how much your blog has blessed me! Thank you so very much for sharing your story and such a clear presentation of the gospel! Isn't God wonderful?!

    I so look forward to meeting you in a couple of weeks for the Goodwill Shop & Hop! Is the Sarah from "your" story the same Sarah over at Thrifty Decor Chick?

  41. Anonymous says:

    I've been reading your blog recently and decided to go to Older posts. Found out you went to Liberty U. and that intrigued me because I went there also (93-95) and loved every minute of it just as you did. I couldn't stop reading your Real and Raw. You are a terrific story teller and very talented crafter. Thanks for sharing your story as it actually took me back to when my hub and I met between my 2 yrs at Liberty. I'm looking forward to hearing much more from you. Good Bless You sister!!

  42. What a great story! God is good all the time. I really enjoyed reading it all. Don't worry I sneak over to Cha Ching on a shoe string every now and then. I need to put it on my blog list to remember.

  43. LOL! I can totally picture the scene you describe, but trying not to at the same time. Too Funny!

  44. Thank you for sharing your story! I love the insight that gave me into who you really are! God is good! I love your testimony and your spirit!

  45. Anonymous says:

    Just wanted to let you know that your story touched my heart today and I feel closer to God because of it. Thanks!

  46. Okay, its your fault I haven't finished the laundry! Your story was a good book I couldn't put down! So grateful for your willingness to share.
    Always remember, just because you made some poor decisions early on (VERY early on, long long ago!)everyone does. The reason Christ died for us is so that we can be forgiven, and you have!

  47. Anonymous says:

    I have tears in my eyes reading your story. You are truly a beautiful woman and I have been enjoying your crafty tips for a while now. I just recently discovered the Real and Raw portion of your blog. All I can say is WOW. You are an amazing woman and I wish you and your family all the best.


  48. Wow! I know these posts aren't new, but I'm new to your blog. I started with the first one and kept going! It's really beautiful how your life evolved and sometimes going through it all really reminds you of the path that you have been on your entire life.

    Thank you for sharing such a deep, personal story.

  49. Wow! You have SO blessed me this morning. I stumbled on your blog from Thrifty Decor Chick. I was amazed at your craftiness, but am SUPER amazed that you have the fingerprints of God all over your life. Your redemption story is SO like our great God. I nearly peed on myself when you said your husband prayed you into frugality! We are soul sisters for sure. I think we would be best friends if we lived close. Praying for you and your blog!

  50. Thank you so much for sharing such a personal part of your life. I have a similar story of somehow following the wrong path and ending up leading a life unlike anything I ever wanted. It was Christ alone who led me back. I know through Christ I am forgiven, and for now, He's really the only one who knows the details. Maybe one day I'll be able to share my story. God bless you!

  51. AtOneWithHim says:

    thank you becks for sharing your life song with me. i too had to "recover" from the Catholic life. The guilt dude…yikes. anyway, i wish every non believer could know the love of Christ as we do.. to know that you don't have to live up to anything or be as good as.. say tim :>. And also to know that Christians will still fail even though we try our darnedest not to.
    I love matt 18:12-14

  52. What a WONDERFUL story ! I loved and sat up late into the nite to finish it…you are an inspiration. God bless you,Hon…

  53. Pedey @ Do You Smell That!!? says:

    The way you ended your last sentence reminded me of one of my all-time favorite quotes: "Be loyal to the royal within you, for you are the daughter of a King!" – Harold B Lee

    Thank you for taking us on this journey with you! I have a very similar story & it was fun to relive mine in my memory as I followed you through yours.

  54. myhappysocks says:

    Wow, who needs sleep?! lol! Yes, I stayed awake reading last night until I could no longer keep my eyes open, and then woke up this morning to finish! What a wonderful, beautiful love story! Both with God and with your husband. It's so nice to look back on the journey God brought us through and see the ribbon of love and care, especially when it's hard to see in the process. Thanks for sharing πŸ™‚

  55. I am new reader to your blog. Thank you for sharing your story! I love to read about other's spiritual journies.

  56. prairiewhisper says:

    Thank you for your story of your life.

  57. I've have spent most of the night reading the whole series… were right, my family was looking at me like a nutter for being glued to a blog for that long! πŸ˜€

    I just wanted to thank you for the whole thing! I seriously cried (a lot) and at the end laughed so hard! If I didn't already respect you as a wife, a woman and a crafty one at that, I respect you more now as a person. I think you are truly blessed and on a personal note….was perfect timing for me to read this.

    Thank you.

  58. Thanks for sharing your story and I'm so glad that you (and God) were able to use all of your struggles for good in the end. I also wanted to say how sorry I am that you were treated so poorly by the girls you grew up with. And most of all I am so sorry that you were not able to find nourishment in the Catholic Church at that time. I am a Catholic and I love my faith and my Church so much and it makes me so sad when I hear that someone has had a bad experience. But I'm glad that you were able to find God and that God found a good man for you! God Bless!

  59. oh amanda {impress your kids} says:

    Gorgeous. I was reading your blogging story and then like you said, got sucked into your life story. Thank you for being so honest and open and real.


  60. Funky Junk Interiors says:

    Thank-you for sharing your story! The part that stuck (and is sticking to me at this moment) is the poem about waiting for the right one. I sure hope it's written in scripture like that because if that's the case, I have alot to look forward to! πŸ™‚

    Thank-you so much!


  61. I was directed to your blog because I wanted to know a little more about the new silhouette/fabric functions. It's kind of a miracle that I found your blog. I just kept clicking from blog to blog to blog and I ended up here. I'm really glad I did. i forgot that i was reading someone's REAL LIFE story…i thought i was reading a fairy tale. though i know you probably don't see it that way, the Lord has blessed you with a magical life/story. THANKS FOR SHARING!!!!

  62. I just wanted to say that today is the first time I came to your blog and that I just finished your story and it was really "raw and real" as you put it but with a happy ending. I'm so happy that you have a good life now and that you have your husband and kids and your whole family really. It's really inspiring πŸ˜€
    I will visit your blog again πŸ™‚

  63. merideth says:

    i can't even remember how i first ended up on your blog (a link somewhere), but i hold you personally responsible for my wreck of a house b/c i could NOT stop reading! still can't – i'm going backward all the way to your first post . . . therefore, please send housework help. amen. πŸ™‚

  64. Thank you for sharing your story. Thank you for not being ashamed to talk about your love of the Lord. Thank you for sharing your talent and time with all of us fortunate enough to find you. I pray the good Lord will continue to bless you and your family all the days of your lives.

  65. I’m waaay late in reading this part of your story. But, I just want to tell you how great it was to read, and what a reminder of my own growing up it was. I have a preteen son, and I needed to go back “there” again to remember those real and raw feelings of Middle School, so I can cut him some slack! I too married the ONE that God saved for me and that I felt I really didn’t deserve at first. He has blessed my life so much and healed me of so many things. I am grateful to be a follower of Christ!

    • YAY! Thanks for taking time to read my story. It was hard to put it out there but i am so glad I did. I am not at the “raising teenagers” phase yet but I have a feeling I will need to reread it too. Hugs sister!

  66. That is an amazing story. I love it. I’m also a believer and so is my husband so I understand the blessing of having a Godly husband:)

  67. I really loved reading your story. I can relate on many levels. Thank you so much for sharing it. It was incredibly moving. I was actually crying at one point! God is such an amazing savior.

  68. I thought i was just sitting down to check google reader and ended up on your site reading your story for an hour! thanks so much for sharing! i don’t know how you remember so much detail! my story would be like a half a page long because i can’t remember much of it! and i didn’t even do any drugs! lol!! LOTS of great parts to your story and really enjoyed reading it! now i really should get some soldering done!!!

  69. I just had a Real and Raw marathon! I’m glad I got to read it all in one shot and didn’t have to wait for “installments”! πŸ™‚ Thank you for your openness. The verse that comes to mind is, “He is able to do immeasurably more than we can ask or even imagine”. Amen.

  70. Awesome. I too read the entire thing from start to finish. Funny how god gives you what you need when you aren’t sure you need it. This gives me great inspiration to deal with a dark time I’m going through. Thank you for being brave and sharing.

  71. Just wanted to say I really enjoyed reading your story! I sat here at my computer for hours reading through the entire thing! Gotta say I’m glad I read it after the fact so I didn’t have to wait to see what happened next!! haha!! Thanks so much for sharing!

  72. And I was suppose to go to bed early tonight! Seriously though thanks for sharing your story-you are very brave and beautiful. One of the parts that struck a cord with me was when you kissed. I remember when my husband and I were dating he told me he made a commitment never to kiss a girl unless he was going to marry her. So the day he kissed me I knew he wanted to marry me. You never know who you might touch with this wonderful story in which God gets all the glory. Wouldn’t that be great if a bunch of gals got together sharing our stories and showing how faithful the Lord is.

  73. Beckie – your story is just beautiful, thank you for sharing this!

  74. I just stayed up for over an hour reading your real & raw story… how had I never seen this on your blog before? You are so amazing! I feel blessed that you have come into our lives, and I admire your faith, perserverance and genuine love for other people! Thank you for sharing your story! – Holly

  75. Thank you so much for taking the risk and being so generous in sharing your testimony. πŸ™‚ I really enjoyed it! (Obviously I MUST have if I stayed up to 3:30 AM reading it! I did not want to stop reading it]! πŸ™‚ Be encouraged. And thank you again. You encouraged me by letting me know there are godly, Christian, sweet men out there. It kind-of hurts to know that that hasn’t happened to me yet (your type of Christian romance story) but I am still waiting. I have been waiting my whole life for that. It hurts to see this happen to all of my friends around me who are younger than me, but still not to me. I have been losing hope for so many years and then have a faith and a peace that passes all understanding that God will provide this for me too, and then fear, doubt and discouragement/losing hope again, and then a thread in the back of my head of hope and faith again…back and forth (or both at the same time)! LOL I could use prayer. I mostly feel despair and fear about it. I am SOO discouraged by the males I have observed and also at the lack of Christian godly males period. Please pray for me sister. And I am glad that you had a happy ending. God bless.

  76. P.S. I am SOO SORRY that those girls were so mean to you. That is awful! NO one should have to go through that. πŸ™ I’ve had plenty of mean people in my life too. πŸ™ I am so glad that the Lord has surrounded you with kind girls/sisters in the Lord now though to heal your heart. Thank God! He is so good. That is a testimony to Him. πŸ™‚ He redeems all things. πŸ™‚ Be blessed. πŸ™‚

  77. Oh yah! I forgot to say that I am sorry that your parents went through a divorce as well and that you were devastated and felt betrayed about what your youth leader did. I understand. Our choir director had an affair with her best friend’s husband & was asked to step down as choir director b/c of it. They did not repent but left the church and wanted to run off together-to leave their spouses to be with each other instead. A lot of people left the church b/c of this. It really devastated me. πŸ™ It shocked and hurt me. πŸ™ So, I understand. And I am sorry. I hope this does not make any unbelievers who may be reading this use this as another excuse to not believe in God or to not trust Him. We humans (whether believing Christians or unbelievers alike) are all sinners, but God is without sin (God is not like us. He is morally perfect and Holy). I hope that any of you unbelievers that may be reading this will still take a risk in trying to put your trust in Him any ways, despite our failure in representing Him perfectly. We DO try, but we do fail. But God is good and faithful even when we are not, and so I hope that any of you unbelievers out there, will still give Him (God/Jesus) a chance to prove Himself to you, to woo you romantically/spiritually to Himself, for you to allow Him to love on you b/c He is crazy about you. You are the apple of His eye. He wants to generously lavish His love upon you. PLEASE give Him a chance. That is all I ask. You will miss out on the kind of love you had wanted all your life if you do not. And that would be a tragedy. God bless you all.

  78. I loved reading this. I don’t even know how i ended up at your blog, but i am glad i did. I just really admire how you were able to say all of that, so honestly. Very beautiful, thank you.

  79. Mindy Schaper says:

    Hi. I came across your story and read the last few episodes, though I will now read the rest. I will comment on the whole story when I am done, but for now I just wanted to say that the honeymoon maid story is TOO FUNNY. You had me laughing out loud (literally) and I rarely do that. Thanks for providing me with much amusement. πŸ™‚ Mindy

  80. You are right, that did suck out time, but it was worth every second. Thank you for your bravery and voice. I have shared this with a friend of mine who will also really love your story. Looking forward to continued education through your endeavors. THANK YOU!

  81. Faye Mauk says:

    Thank you for telling your story. You are not only blessed, but a blessing.
    I found you through Pinterest, and saved your blogging info site a while back, because I am interested in blogging, but haven’t even started. I was just considering it, and ran across your very generous blog full of gems!

    While reading, I saw your story & have spent the entire afternoon reading it. I actually saw you on My Indy. I had no idea it was you, until reading your story. We have done some of the road kill rescue, too, but usually we put items on the curb and it is gone in 5 minutes!

    we live in Greensburg, IN. Again, I didn’t know U lived in Indy, until I began reading. We were at the Home Show, but missed seeing U. Again, I wish I had read your blog earlier, & we might have met on that day. I will watch for U on My Indy!

    I am probably your mother’s age; I am very glad that U shared of your relationship with Christ! So many people need to hear His Story, and they are hearing through your story!

    Thanks again for being so sharing about blogs! I had no clue how they work… Often wondered… But there are so many things I would love sharing about, and you have given me a lot of insight!

    I am sure your parents are very proud of you!
    See U on TV and will be reading your blog often!
    A Fan!
    Faye /basest mamma on Instagram / we are on FB too;0)

  82. CArrie Eastman says:

    I just read your whole story from start to finish! It was beautifully written. Thanks for sharing such intimate details of your life! By the way, I saw your silhouette you made of your family on wood and I had to do it but I did mine on canvas and put a wood frame around it. I always get so many compliments on it.


  83. Beckie,

    I cannot begin to tell you the emotions I am feeling after just having read every part to your raw and real story! It sadly felt like reading my own life through most of middle and high school, down to the red hair which I also have. It brought back a lot of painful memories but also made me smile when I think about how I became stronger from it all and how much bigger my heart is because of what I endured. I know I would not be the compassionate person I am today had I not faced so much evil as a child from these bullies that altered my life through a cruel rumor that felt neverending as a girl.

    Seeing a story so similar to my own also makes me want to do something to help other young girls. I don’t know how or where yet but this has given me the push to find a way to help those facing bullies. I hate to think of other young girls being as terrified of school and social events as I was for so long. I am 33 now and feel I have really just begun to live without that fear and sadness in the last 3 years. For far too long I let these things burden my heart and mind. So if I can help just one young girl I think my healing will be complete. Thank you so much for telling your story, I’m sure it wasn’t easy but I can say for certain it has benefited at least one person, me(and I’m sure many others). I will certainly “pay it forward” what your story has just done for me.

    Thank you again and please keep up the incredible work you do through your blogging. Every article gives someone somewhere the courage to try something new and expand themselves!!


    • Wow, thanks so much, Jami. Your words truly mean so much to me. While it was definitely hard to bear my soul in such a public way, it is so encouraging to hear from others who have shared my struggles and know where I have been. Hearing that it has made a difference in the lives of others, makes it completely worth it. I definitely encourage you to find that outlet to help other young girls facing bullying. I’d love to hear what you find. Take care, Beckie

  84. RamsayGrace says:

    I was so pleasantly surprised when I found your “raw and real” series. I stopped by expecting to see beautiful decor and awesome DIY/craft projects and became so engrossed in your story that I haven’t been able to put it down. Seriously,I started over an hour ago. Thanks so for sharing your story. It really is an inspiration and I feel better having heard it. πŸ™‚


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