My Blog Story Part 5

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So I came home from Blissdom ’10 with a renewed vision and passion for blogging.   But I had no idea where to start.   I knew forging relationships was the first thing I needed to do. I decided to try to get to know some other bloggers I really admired. I didn’t want to get to know bloggers for the sake of trying to grow my blog. I wanted to forge relationships with people for the sake of relationships and because we had something in common.

So I sent an email to Amy from The Idea Room in hopes to get to know her better.

I admired her work and I had tried a bunch of her tutorials and thought we had a similar style and taste.   We started forming a relationship over email.   We were both a little clueless over this whole blogging thing.   We were just two creative moms who happen to have blogs. I really like her and I know I could send her an email venting, or bragging and she wouldn’t judge me either way. She has my back, I got hers. We ended up doing a blog swap and my blog grew a little in the process.   She was one of my first bloggy friends.

I kept trying to send emails and get to know other bloggers but didn’t really get the same reciprocation.   It wasn’t anything against me, they had just found their tribe, it wasn’t a great fit, or they were busy, etc.

But then I remember seeing a lot of bloggers doing collaborative projects together.   I remember one weekend feeling particularly bummed over blogging.   I just felt like I didn’t fit in, like it was too hard, I didn’t have what it took, I wasn’t creative enough, I didn’t stick out enough.   I was considering throwing in the towel.   I remember actually being in tears about it. It was one of those moments when I was having a full out pity party and I wanted to quit.

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Photo Credit: Lisa’s Cheap Therapy

It was the most discouraging moment in blogging.   I was asking myself those questions,

“Why am I doing this?’”

“Why do I care so much?”

“Why am I crying over a blog? seriously!”

Within days of my pity party I got an email from Amanda from Imperfectly Beautiful which said,

“Hey Beckie.

Ok, so I have a proposal for you. I am partnering with another blogger, Jen from Tatertots and Jello, to start a new blog, and we need a third partner.You were the first person to pop into my mind when I thought of someone I respect and would love to work with! Our site is called the CSI Project…Creating Something Inspiring….”

I was so blown away I started crying when I received the email!   It was a huge affirmation to me. And here was my response…

“Amanda,

Can I just tell you what an answer to prayer this email was!!   Not to over spiritualize this but I have been struggling the last couple of days with bloggy discouragement.   I feel like everyone is in “cahoots” together doing all these awesome collaborative projects except me.   I also saw the green little monster rearing its ugly head as I see other people’s blogs grow and have been feeling sorry for myself because of my slow growth.   I have been praying about my attitude and confessing my jealousy and talking to God about it the last couple of days but I have been in a funk.


I am sure we all feel this way as women at times…inadequate, not enough, not creative enough, not entertaining enough..   I guess it is part of blogging…being a woman and putting ourselves out there creatively.   The fact that you guys would like me to be part of this overwhelms me and it is like a little reassurance that I am right where I need to be.

I would be humbled to be part of this endeavor.   You can’t imagine how this made my week.   I needed this.   Thank you.”

And The CSI Project began in May of 2010…

Visit thecsiproject.com

I know what you want to ask…Are you making money at this point?   Are advertisers falling out of the sky?   Do you still love it or has it become a chore? How are you able to balance family and blogging?

Stay tuned, I’ll get there

Click here to read My Blog Story Part 6





  • Myra @ My Blessed Life

    Beckie, I'm so loving this series. This post is pretty much where I feel like I am right now. Thank you for your incredibly honesty. I can't wait to meet you IRL in just a few days! :) xo

  • Amy @ Positively Splendid

    I have to echo Myra's sentiment. Talk about pertinent to my own experience at this particular moment. THANK YOU for recounting this! I'll hug your sweet neck for it in a few days! :)

  • Amanda @ Serenity Now

    I have soooo enjoyed reading your series, Beckie. I can ditto Myra's comment. I'm in the same boat right now, and it occurred to me that I haven't bothered to pray about it. How completely and utterly embarrassing! I have a bad track record of trying to fix things on my own without asking for Someone's help. :s Thanks for the reminder that He cares about me…and what I'm interested in too. :) Hugs!

  • Christine

    Keep it going…I'm listening!

  • Attempting Aloha

    Seriously? You can't end THERE!! lol Excited to see the rest. :)

    Aloha,
    charlie

  • I Am Momma – Hear Me Roar

    Beckie, This series is really fun, but you're killing me with the "to be continued!" Ahhh! I need more :) Anyhow, I love your open honesty in the way you tell your story. It's really great and refreshing.

    Cheri

  • Erica @ Acire Adventures

    I just wanted to tell you, Beckie, how great of a writer you are! When you write (especially when you write a series) you do such a fantastic job. You make your stories entertaining, inspiring and helpful. You have a way of speaking that sounds as if we know one another, even though I'm just one of thousands of readers. Thanks for being so humble and willing to share. Thank you for reminding us all that you are human too. :)

  • Melissa

    I'm loving this series and I'm going to ditto Myra. I may be social in real life but I have a hard time stepping outside my box on the internet. Which sounds funny when you think of how "connected" I am, but the ones I spend most of my time chatting with are people who I know in real life.

  • Randi

    Thanks for sharing this series … I'm loving reading it and I feel like it's answering some of my "how" questions. I can relate to all that you're saying.

  • Holly

    Beckie…thanks for sharing this story. As I mentioned before I feel this and it is just good to hear someone else's story/path/experiences.
    Holly

  • Alicia

    Wow. Another week for the continuation right? Lol. You are truly an inspiration =)

  • Attilio

    beckie, if you really ever ditch the towel in to blogging (and you'd better not girl coz lots of us will be saaaad), then you could eaaassssily be a fanatastic author/writer. your stories are real, gripping and make the reader feel whats happening.
    cant wait for the next bit…thanks becky
    bpbajona at maltanet dot net

  • Richella

    Beckie, it's been really fun reading this series. I've been a follower of yours for. . . how long?? I'm not sure–ever since I read that series you posted about the difficulties you had while growing up. I've always loved your realness, your sense of humor, your incredible creativity–and your red hair! Anyway, I'm really looking forward to meeting you at Blissdom. My little blog is still tiny (520 followers), and in today's blog-clogged world I don't know if it'll grow much bigger or not. But I do want to make it better. I want to be a positive part of the blogging community. So I'm looking forward to giving you a hug and just drinking in some of your spirit! :)

  • InMyOwnStyle

    Hi Beckie-

    Thanks for opening yourself up and telling us your story. We all have the same thoughts about our blogs and it is nice to know we are not alone. It is inspiring that you are sharing what you know as it can only help us with our own misgivngs and fears. I am eagerly looking forward to reading the rest – HURRY! :)
    If you are going to Blissdom- I hope you learn lots and will share that with us also. Have a wonderful time.
    M best- Diane

  • Judy

    I am loving this series. I look forward to reading each installment. I am learning so much. I am only 3 1/2 months into this journey and I am excited to see where it goes. I have so much to learn yet, that I am sure. I can't wait for the part 6.

  • Molly Smith

    You are adorable, Beckie, and I am loving your stories. You have a special gift and I know this is only the beginning for you :) hugs xo

  • Hope

    Beckie-Thank you so much for sharing this series with us. I have been blogging since Dec. '10 and so far love it. It is nice to know that I'm not alone in all these "why not me, what am I doing wrong, …etc." questions that new bloggers face. Thanks again for your inspiration and encouragment. BTW-Good Luck with your CWTS partner! GO TEAM!!!!

  • Fibro Fog and More…

    I sure hope that you don't tire reading all of these comments! You really have talent and I LOVE reading your story!! When did you discover the "continued" technique? It truly works and makes your readers want more and want it now! Thanks for being you!

  • Amy {The Idea Room}

    Love you Beckie! Thanks for the kind words! I am so glad you did reach out to me. I value our friendship! Love this series and you do have a gift for writing…but the cliffhangers are killing me!

  • fionabakesandcrafts

    I've been blogging for a couple years now on and off, and I think making connections and reaching out are the hardest part of blogging, but they're also the most rewarding.

    I'm pretty quiet, and sometimes shy in real life, and I guess that carries over into my presence online too.

    I'm really enjoying this series, thanks for sharing the behind the scenes part of blogging.

  • Cook Clean Craft

    Wow! What a great post/story! I was just recently thinking about all the bloggers who talk about what great connections and friendships they've made through blogging and I was thinking that I hadn't really made any. I was starting to feel like back in high school – the shy, dorky kid in the background. Don't get me started on how I don't have a clue how to make connections/have conversations on Twitter. Thank you for making me feel like I'm not alone on this. Just gotta keep trying and not be afraid to be myself. Not everyone will like me, but there's a whole world of people out there, so I'm sure to find some kindred spirits (although quiet, dorky ones like me are hard to get out of their shells…).

  • Miss Mustard Seed

    What a great post! I remember having times like that…I felt like it was a popularity contest in high school all over again and I was taking the numbers waaay to seriously. I had to stop and take a deep breath, relax and just let things happen. I'm sure we all have felt or will feel like that at some point. Thanks for your transparency. :)

  • Anita @ GoingALittleCoastal

    I always enjoy coming by here. Catching up on your series and it is so great! It can all be very frustrating at times. I wish I was going to Blissdom to meet you and everyone else. Perhaps next year. You have always been such an inspiring blogger and always open and warm. Thanks for that.

  • Amanda

    I'm loving this series! And I'm so glad that you've blogged about joining others and making friends! :){And I think Amy is one of the sweetest gals I know or well, at least email with! :)

    Can't wait for part 6! Have an awesome week!!
    Amanda

  • Restorative Living

    I have been waiting for this post because I was looking forward to what you would say about creating blogging relationships with others. It IS difficult. Especially when starting out. The gals with the hugely successful blogs don't have enough hours in the day to reach out to the newbies and the other newbies are hard to find because, well, we're newbies and don't have a lot of traffic! I'm eating up your story. Thank you for sharing. Your ups-and-downs story is encouraging to me. I'm still trucking along, but even the slightest surge in traffic gives me renewed energy for this gig. But without relationships across blogland that's almost impossible! I'll keep trying and I look forward to your next installment!!

  • Amy Jo

    You're right! Those are the questions that I'm wondering!!! How do you have time to do it all? The projects that you do seem quite time consuming, then to take pictures, blog about it, connect and participate on other blogs. And then family, home, church on top of it all. You are amazing! And you are awesome at responding to comments and questions. I love that you still make time for that!

  • Upscale Downhome

    Beckie-
    Thank you so much for sharing your story in a real and honest way. We can see your heart and I appreciate it so much! I just started blogging and your encouragement means the world to me. I can't wait for your next post….

  • karinjoan

    oh my! I LOVE. your story!!

  • Christina @ the “i can’t decide” blog

    So…I have to tell you…I love your story so far…and many of your projects have inspired me…but I have ONE question….you mean to tell me that you just started randomly emailing bloggers that you loved/admired? I wouldn’t have the guts to do that! It would make me a little crazy…because as humans, and especially women, we constantly seek approval…and I would hate the possibility of being turned down…how did you handle that???

    • http://infarrantlycreative.net Beckie

      I just didn’t take it to heart. I realize everyone is busy. But I made some great connections that i wouldn’t have made had I not put myself out there.

      • Christina @ the “i can’t decide” blog

        Thank you so much. I might have to get my big girl panties on and give it a try!!

  • http://www.therusticpig.com Claire @ The Rustic Pig

    Yep! Know this feeling!! Still reading and learning and will probably be sitting on your blog for the remainder of the day! Thanks for being so real. For helping those of us who are in this very moment. For having faith. For sharing your story…Thank you!